It’s kind of my blogiversary and more importantly my birthday.
I started this blog so that I could join SP5. Then I kept the blog going so that I could be in SP6. After I decided not to join SP7 I kept the blog going purely for the RAOK web ring. I haven’t been a very good blogger. I was never very good at sharing my feelings and sometimes it is hard to find the time to sit down and write. Other times I find it hard to put into words what I am feeling. I just keep on hoping that I will get better at this stuff. I’m not quite ready to throw in the towel yet.
On March 21, I will be 26. I don’t really feel my age. Not even close to it. I usually say I feel more like I’m 16 and it’s true. I really do. There are days when I feel just as insecure as I was when I was 16. Other times I remember how carefree it was to be 16 and I feel the exact same way. When I was 16 I really enjoyed my life. I didn’t know where I was going to be or what I was going to do when I grew up, but I was ok with that. Some days I still feel this same way. I am starting to worry more about the whole “what I’m going to do when I grow up” part though. I can honestly say I am happy with my life (most of the time). I’ve never really liked my birthday. Not sure exactly when this started or why, but I do have an idea. It’s a little too much to share here.
Tomorrow on my birthday I will enjoy who I am, the good and the bad parts of being me. Tomorrow I will count my blessings. Tomorrow I am going to really enjoy my birthday.